tired from running

i dont know where to run to anymore.
i feel lost and lonely more then ever.
every time i get up i am in such a bad mood,
its not even funny no more.

I am not really like this.
i am a happy person. i know i am.
even if the majority of the time i seem so negative.

its the constant screaming and fighting.
the arguing and the nonsense that makes me like this.
i am tired of it all that i just want to escape.

i feel trap just listening and staying quite.
if i could i wouldn't be here, i would be somewhere else.
that is why i am moody.
that is why i yell back and have no patience.
that is why i go to my room and lock my door.
to run away! to run and cry from everything i do not want to be part of.
that's the reason i leave the house and go out with friends,
to avoid all the commotion i can not stand anymore.

i dont like being like this.
i hate feeling like this.
i love you guys...
but sometimes i wish you would stop.
stop with all the screaming
stop with all the nonsense
and just deal with situation.

i am tired of running, running away from everyone.
i am so so so tired.....................