Once Again

School is something that has always been imposed on me. I was always a good student, never got in trouble, and stressed out very easily when it came to projects. When I got to high school it was a bit more easier then my private middle school. So i got straight A's except for those occasional courses that actually challenged me. Anyways the point is that now am so tired of it. For example am suppose to be studying right now but i cant i just dont feel like it, and its bad because i really need to pass my classes this quarter =/ i sometimes wish i was just married and had a stable job. dont get me wrong i love school. learning new things and being exposed to reality and what is going on out there in the world is so fascinating but i just dont want to study and take exams! they drain me out! augh and what i hate most is that when i graduate i still need to continue school to get my masters because that is what really counts you know. i just wish this was over with already! i feel like am losing most of my life that i should be enjoing. once again i feel like i will be a failure in school maybe thats why i give up easily. i see how other classmates and friends study and stay up late at night and what not, but i cant! i wish i could i really do but i just cant. idk am just tired of this i wish i was a different person. a stronger person, a smarter person, a person who carried herself confidently and doesnt shy away from others. AUGH! i just dont know anymore.................. ( This leads into another blog which i will write another day beacuse i need to go back to studying now)